Surgery news.
Mar. 11th, 2013 12:53 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
agent_daniMy surgery confirmation packet arrived Saturday. Aside from a mystery $75CDN still on the price (the initial documentation I was sent gave the price for SRS as $19,300 but the contract has $19,375) everything is in order.
Unfortunately, the one thing I don't have is a sense of confidence in this. I feel very conflicted. What if this is a mistake and I will regret it, even if only spending the money on something that has come to mean so little.
Then again, I think back and know I was certain about it at past points. How much of the uncertainty is the years of gatekeeper bullshit?
I just don't know, and doubt I ever will.
Unfortunately, the one thing I don't have is a sense of confidence in this. I feel very conflicted. What if this is a mistake and I will regret it, even if only spending the money on something that has come to mean so little.
Then again, I think back and know I was certain about it at past points. How much of the uncertainty is the years of gatekeeper bullshit?
I just don't know, and doubt I ever will.
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Date: 2013-03-11 04:02 pm (UTC)