More thoughts...
May. 10th, 2011 12:42 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
agent_daniTwo things I realize I need to deal with:
1: The excessive discomfort around men. I realize this really isn't doing anything to help me, that the perception of threat/danger is very much overstated due to what my experiences (with boys and men I was around, from my classmates to those who are immediate relatives) presented to me. Now the question is, how to even take the first step on this one? Perhaps I just need time to pass while living my life...don't know; I have no other ideas.
2: Sex - what I can best describe as difficulties with respect to arousal. While I am finding I like my body very much more today there are some very specific things I very much do not; areas I'm able to now see clearly because of the rest of transition being behind me. It's something I've felt for a while but the entire matter really formed into coherent thoughts only recently, in part because of something I recently read.
Less vague, it's damned hard to be able to enjoy sex when it inherently involves arousal focused on parts of your body that you're trying like hell to ignore. If I were to say there was a negative I've found in transition it's this. *blegh*
I used to be unsure about GCS and thought that I could be happy non-op. I'm thinking that less so now.
ETA: LJ readers: this was originally posted two days ago but the crosspost failed at that time.
1: The excessive discomfort around men. I realize this really isn't doing anything to help me, that the perception of threat/danger is very much overstated due to what my experiences (with boys and men I was around, from my classmates to those who are immediate relatives) presented to me. Now the question is, how to even take the first step on this one? Perhaps I just need time to pass while living my life...don't know; I have no other ideas.
2: Sex - what I can best describe as difficulties with respect to arousal. While I am finding I like my body very much more today there are some very specific things I very much do not; areas I'm able to now see clearly because of the rest of transition being behind me. It's something I've felt for a while but the entire matter really formed into coherent thoughts only recently, in part because of something I recently read.
Less vague, it's damned hard to be able to enjoy sex when it inherently involves arousal focused on parts of your body that you're trying like hell to ignore. If I were to say there was a negative I've found in transition it's this. *blegh*
I used to be unsure about GCS and thought that I could be happy non-op. I'm thinking that less so now.
ETA: LJ readers: this was originally posted two days ago but the crosspost failed at that time.
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Date: 2011-05-11 03:58 pm (UTC)