Stuck in my thoughts.

I keep thinking of the therapist stating "the risks of losing sensation and having complications is not a valid concern in this day. It was a problem with older SRS procedures and surgeons. The modern ones have eliminated that risk" and the endocrinologists asserting "if you don't need SRS then you aren't trans and taking HRT has to be bad for you."

it wasn't a one-time thing, it was hours of interrogation about my feelings about surgery every month for 4 years, until I finally gave in to their demands. All of it lies hiding the actual risks.